I’ve had a nice break from doctor visits, tests and
procedures. I’ve rather enjoyed it, but
next week I will be back in the hot seat again. I will be having a follow-up
PET scan on Tues, Feb 4th. I have not found any new lumps, and I’m
not overly concerned. This test is just to make sure that there are no
surprises. Of course even standard follow-up tests bring with them a certain
amount of nervousness, so if you think of me please pray. Pray that I will get
clean results and that I will be able to rest in the Lord during the week I
will have to wait for my results.
Luckily PET scans
aren’t a huge deal. They are not cheap but at least for me I think they are
easier to do than an MRI. The goal of the PET scan is to find any cancer that
is throughout your body. The test is used when a doctor is concerned with
distant recurrences of cancer. What that means is that the cancer has spread
from its original site. Since I had a local recurrence last year, this caused
the doctors to be more concerned about distant recurrences. I believe that it
is a standard test to do after you have had any recurrence. This will be my
second and hopefully last PET scan.
This February marks the third February that I have been
dealing with cancer. The last two times the calendar said “February” I have
found a lump. The last two Marchs I have been diagnosed with cancer. So you can
understand my growing weariness of this time of year. I would so like to break
this pattern this year! And I’m hoping that this PET scan will do this. If it
comes back clean, then I should be able to rest a little easier the rest of the
month!
Of course this test is just that – a test. It is nothing
more. The One I really put my hope and trust in is God. It is so easy to put a
lot of weight on a certain test or diagnosis. To think that this test is the
one that means that I am totally free of cancer and don’t have to worry. Or to
be cancer free this many years means that I’m home free. But that is not the
way cancer always works. It doesn’t always follow the rules that we make for
it. And we are not really doing ourselves any favors anyway if we put too much
weight on these human things. God is the one in control. He is where my hope
should solely lie. And every time I start to get nervous about a test I just
remind myself of that. I may not know what the future holds but I can trust the
One who does!